Perfection

Perfection

NOTAREALSTORY #FAKESTORY

#NOT DEDICATION TO SOMEONE

#FAKEFAKESTORY, #DEARCRUSHSERIE$

This is just a fake letter to nobody at all, It just something I like to write. IT NOT REAL 

Dear crush

I really don’t know how to deal with this feeling that I have for you.
Every time I see you, you gave me hope, delight, happiness and love.
I intend to be so shy, even though we a far distance, I really tried to catch your eyes.
Every time I see you, you were like a perfect angel from the heavens to save me from trouble.
I wanted to try so hard to be perfect for you,
but you are pursuing another person from a distance to,
which I know I can’t compete.
You to perfect for my league that I couldn’t stand a chance to be with you.
that may stand in our way. Your like an angel.
You have skin of perfection ,
The style of gold and
the personality like a rainbow and eyes of diamond .
You always bring the lights towards my day ,
and made me smile even though i try not to cry.
You bring me happiness when I’m in a cruel time,
But sometimes it saddens my heart when I can't be with you.
If I wish for one thing is to be perfect enough so I can give you the whole world.
But everything  I say towards you summarized how much I care about you .
You like a rose that bloomed , Who's unaware what she is ,
You like a star that is brighter than the sun itself.
Your like an angel that possessed perfection even you don't know your own flaws.
You mean the world to me even though I'm not what you seek ,
even the rejection will come to necessarily,
I’ll support you even if you don't want me,
I will always support you conditionally ,
even if it persuade a dream , a goal , or love. I always care for you.

Cause your my angel of perfection and my divine flower. Love you

Sincerely secret admirer 

Angel of my life

Angel of my life

One day , I met  the angel of my life,.
She and I met each other on the beach
playing volleyball with mutual friends ,
but we knew we were in love in this alternate universe.
 We went for a walk , holding each other hands ,
blushing in every moment ,
because it felt awkward ,
but soon we gazed in each other eyes ,
as we hold each others hands.
I was stun by her heavenly beauty.
her eyes sparkle like brown crystal diamond  ,
her hair made of smooth silk made by angels,
her smile is like heaven and her voice ,
make the whole universe stop to listen to her sweet delicate voice.
I had fallen for her , but fearing I'm leaving her.
We talked as we walked around the whole island ,
until we arrived to our final destination , I
told her awkwardly “ I love you , she reply with a  sad tone giggle.
As we sit on the benches
leaning our heads on each other shoulders like couples ,
we both started crying, as she and I knew , I was leaving,
I kissed her on the forehead
while holding her hand tightly for our last moment ,
then i told her “ no matter what happens to who i am,
you’ll be always the love of my life” ,
he gives his final kiss to her, then he left.

The feels

This is not a dear crush thingy , this is a real crush letter 

So i fell in love with a girl , mistakenly. I just wish i got the chance to meet her or know her. A mysterious girl. but for boys like me , it'll never works that way, anyways. 

So hey , if my crush out there if you fall in to my blog , I just wanna say i wish we get to know each other, i believe in anything your choice, even if you falling in love for someone else or taken, I'll be waiting on the sidewalk just waiting patiently. Like i said in those three stories i wrote for you. So yeah,  I hopefully we get to talk to each other one day or not.

Love you for those who always tuning on my blog every hour , min , sec , day , months  and years. I appreciate all of you.  

GOLDEN ROSE

#NOTAREALSTORY #FAKESTORY

#NOT DEDICATION TO SOMEONE

#FAKEFAKESTORY, #DEARCRUSHSERIE$

THIS DEAR CRUSH LETTER/STORY

IS FAKE , NOT WRITTEN TO A REAL INDIVIDUAL. DON'T WISH IT FOR A REAL INDIVIDUAL ,...IT NOT(LOL) , I know it would be cheesy

LOL THIS IS NOT NORMAL TO WRITE TO SOMEONE

Dear crush

I don't really know how to explain this feeling . I have this crush on you .  I really tried so hard , to impress you in many ways. But ways you would never see it. You light my heart like Fahrenheit , your eyes are rich and pure.  your style capture the whole surface, and your flair of life is like a diamond that could see your reflection. You capture my heart , like you singing to a crowd at a concert. I know everybody don’t see what you meant to me , but in my heart , you like a superstar. I wish i can be with you . but i'm saddened to see your pursuing someone else love , But no matter what the cause I'll hold my golden rose for you only for you. I'll wait until there's no my golden rose petals to hold on. You the only hope in my darkness time. I just pray that when one day a star shoots , I'll tell it , I'm in with love this girl , cause i'm stun from her beauty and heart of personality , if it my last day ,i'll spend every moment , seconds , and a lifetime to spend with you and tell you i care  for you. But most important of all , i love you and support you with any choice, and disagree on those stupid choice. And if it going for another love, i'll spend my life on supporting your love , even if it gonna hurt , i'll be there.

Cause your the universe to me

I would sell my soul....for your love

#NOTAREALSTORY #FAKESTORY

#NOT DEDICATION TO SOMEONE

#FAKEFAKESTORY, #IMLONELY

Another crush story

Fake story , super duper fake

For real I like writing, but not good at english.  
It the only way i get my emotion out……..

Dear crush

I want you to know, this feeling ,i try push-down , it comebacks to me.
In fact i have a crush on you, You make  me happy, you an angel to me ,
as i am a sad devil with no love watching you above heaven ,
hoping you notice me one day. When I am depressed ,
I always try and hide or ignore the feelings for you ,
because i know our world weren't meant to collide.
I tried to kill it , but it kept me alive.  
You don’t know i'm love with your flair of heart ,
style of beauty and luxury of your personality, you were made by the heavens above.
I would do anything to be by your side
,but i can't take the spot you truly love the most as he pleasure you the most.
I just wanna say i love you.
I wish that someday we can be together as for now i can't get you,
I would sell my soul to god , to sing songs , for your love and to be with you ,
and have the crowd of  heaven sing to you, and bring our world to peace.
But someone else you love , i can't rob them , I just want you to know that.
I have a crush on you but i fear you seek for someone else’s passion,
I just hope you are happy. Because the happiness of your soul matters the world to me .

A single breathe away

#NOTAREALSTORY #FAKESTORY

#NOT DEDICATION TO SOMEONE

#FAKEFAKESTORY, #IMLONELY

Dear crush…..

I might be so cringe , when I first saw you at school ,
you make me blush a little with your flawless beauty and eyes ,
My love defines you , everytime you walk pass me , my heart beats like a dubstep.
I will spend my love , loyal and my dedication to only you.
To be honest i don't know how to express this feeling ,
I will give up my whole heart for you. You make me free , fearless and strong.  

You make me feel special , the happiness to my day ,
I will spend a  single breath with you ,
i don’t know , you just give me hope when i'm in hell at school.

You are special to me and to be honest i don't know how to express this feeling,
No matter what I will risk my life to spend my whole life with you, I will protect you ,
with my own lifespan.

I’m a single breathe away

My expression about emotion/feelings

This topic will be about expressing my feelings. 


I really wanna talk about this sensitive topic ,cause it problem for me deeply , dealing with my feelings towards a certain individual or anything, it just not right for me. I sometimes want only music to explain how i feel , but i cant cause i don't have a voice that is good at singing. I  like dealing with my emotion through music cause I'm trying to fight the feelings i have. cause it just make me feels guilty. 

I really want music to be the only feeling , i have. Cause being in love or not , it just give me a weird feeling. Dealing with feelings /emotion is so hard to the point you get sad. 

All i wanna do is music, without these kind of feelings towards anyone. 

I wish it was reality/ Poem

I WISH IT WAS REALITY / POEM

I SAW HER IN MY DREAMS SHE SAY , EVERYTHING WILL BE ALRIGHT, I CRY, CAUSE I WANTED TO SAY GOODBYE, NOW ALL MY INSECURITY HAS NOW ARRIVE, I MISS YOU , I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO, BUT CRY, I PUT MY PEACE SIGN AND WISH YOU THE BEST, I PUT MY HAND ON MY CHEST, TO HEAL THIS BROKEN HEART, I CRY CAUSE I MISS YOU A LOT,

I MISS YOU DEEPLY , YOU MEANT THE WORLD TO OUR FAMILY, I WISH THAT I COULD MEET YOU IN MY DREAM , AND IT BECOME REALITY ,

PLEASE SHALL THE HEAVENLY SPIRIT GUIDE YOU, IT TIME TO GO HOME , IT SADDEN MY HEART, CAUSE I MISS YOU AND LOVE YOU. SO DEARLY

,

Lashing out (28/06/17-24/10/18)

Lashing out

28 June 2017:

I have a fear of anger. Anger is like frenemies but different. Angernus control your brain , mind and body it doesn't goes away until it over. I don’t like being angry because , it not my friend.   

Being angry to someone you  know or don’t know, is not right to put your anger on them.

I have been trying to control my anger for 6 months , And yet it had taken over me today. I been trying so hard to not get angry at someone for 6 months.  

I just don’t like been hated from people i don’t know. It very hard to not listen what they saying about me , it very negative.

I feel like there’s too much hatred in this world , that we don’t know. I wish in this world there was peace and harmony, I wish there was voice for people to hear , that people could listen , that people could become one, I wish there  was a voice to bring people together.

I hate anger , I hate it , I hate it. It not good for me or my health , it not good for my family and it not good for me at all. I don’t want anger  to define who I am , I want happiness and joy define who i am. Happiness and joy is what I want to represent.

Present day :October 24 2018

It been a long time , i haven't got angry at anyone, i feel like i had the right mindset and right choice and goal , of what to do and what to except . I think for me it has been one year that i never got angry , it surprisingly good, to endurance , not much love nor hate , just to be quiet and endurance inner peace ,  i think as for those who might read this , it has been blasted for me , to endurance an inner peace , and i been trying for the last 6month , now i feel like i'm at peace . by doing music in my secret times at home, i don't usually show that i played a bit of guitar ,play piano and sing.

cause i get a little bit anxious what people think when i perform, but in my mind, i just want to get it perfect for people so they won't laugh at me. It like a challenge i'm gonna face and to except. I'm glad , that i have a task and a challenge to do and my main goal is to bring peace, like the late great john lennon , i wanna bring peace cause i believe people everywhere are created equally.

The only thing , i don't have in my heart is love, cause i really don’t wanna seek it that much , but like i love myself, but sometimes there's sometime you feel insecure of people speaking behind the curtain. I wanna try hard to find the destiny of love , and try endure it , cause that what i want in my life.

Do you know what funny , I have celebrity crush on someone , no mention names , but i feel like when i fall in love , with someone , It like a dream passing by  and and wishing for that moment on repeat , but to me i see it as a blur dream , cause it just a standard feeling only for temporarily, it does not stay there, cause you just want a feeling that sounds forever.  And through my journey i'll wanna try and find that feeling , but omgosh i'm so in love with my celebrity crush, 😂😂

but yeah , just to let you know , i'm okay , and i'm feeling at peace, but searching for dignity of love, hopefully , That my dream doesn't become a blur, but be close to me and hold me in the arms as i die, and kiss me, that one of my craziest imagination

1. Love is something that you can't wish for , it something that you have to be patience ,  be prepare , to learn , and prevent from

  2. We are dreamers , that wish that our own fantasy         

was real, and that we could play god. But we only dream

3. I wish peace exist so we don't have to hurt each other a lot , And just so that love is what we can be.

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1. Make your password harder for someone to not hack on.

2. Don't tell  anyone your password including a stranger .

3. Don’t post anything stupid or else it would destroy your reputation.

4. Keep your account private

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My Digital Footprint

What is a digital foot print? 

A digital footprint is history of sites you been on and what you did on those site 


Why do you think we are learning about digital footprints?

So we can be careful of what we doing on our device